Gastroparesis Diagnosis

            I have been having some pretty severe stomach issues lately. I've been loosing weight {yay} for no reason, no appetite, and constantly constipated. {yeah I said it}. I feel nauseated all the time! I can eat like a bird at meals and be full. I thought my issues were b/c I withdrew from the long time on Percocet. I've always had my stomach issues! Various aliments, surgeries,and treatment plans.


      I was diagnosed about ten days ago with gastroparesis. Meaning slow motility in my stomach. It empties very slowly. I've seen it live too. Looked like the 4th of July fireworks in there. I had to eat radio active scrambled eggs, They weren't bad b/c I got to put salt on them. I had to lay on an X-ray table for an hours and half. It wasn't bad either. The X-ray machine was only about 5 or 6 inches away from my stomach. I thought I'd flip out feeling so confined, but believe it or not it was soothing. Dim lights, elevator music,warm blanket. I would have gone to sleep but was too anxious. I cried like a baby when my Dr. called me with the egg test results. I spoke to the nurse, she couldn't help much. I asked how long it would take the meds to clear this up. She told me there is no cure, that it would be like this the rest of my life. That's the point where I lost it. They sent a packet in the mail with order info from the pharmacy in Canada I have to order my meds from. I'm bipolar as well.  I'm going to delay the meds as long as I can b/c I need to loose like 40 or more lbs. I'm 5'7 & 210ish this time last year I was right at 247. Elavil put  that weight on me.

 I'm just down right mad!  I love food! I love to eat! I love to cook, I love to plow through a plate of cheese fries soaked in homemade ranch dressing! I love big salads,and turnip greens, and cabbage! I love fresh apples and pears and carrots oh my! I'm southern, and food is a much part of our culture as sitting on the porch drinking sweet tea. It's woven in us like a tight knit rug. Aside from loving my bacon and butter and full fat dairy, I don't cook that bad. I never fry stuff,! My full fat fave. is creamed potatoes  swimming in an ocean of butter and heavy cream. I love turkey and dressing! I love most foods! Now, though, I HAVE eat like Mammy told Scarlett to! We're cheese heads around here, all kinds of cheese. Creamy, hard,stinky,blue, white,yellow,peppered,melted,diced,shredded,cubed. We're like Bubba Blue with the way we eat cheese around here.

 I love to bake! I love to make cookies with my kids and eat them straight out of the oven! I bake cakes, I love cake. I love cake so much that I went to the Emmy's last year on Duncan Hines dime! I love yellow cake with warm chocolate sauce on it. I love my mama's peanut brittle. I love 3day coconut cake! I love crusty bread dipped in evoo and balsamic vinegar! I love chess pie,chocolate pie,pecan pie, I don't discriminate.

Food and feeding people is my true passion in life. It may sound petty,but I feel like some of my passion has been taken from me. I feel like part of who I am is what I cook and consume. Josh told me that I can still cook with passion like always, but I just can't eat much of it. Where the hell is the fun in that?

 I'm just plain MAD! I know I need to loose weight, but NOT like this! I was just about to join Weight Watchers before this. Even on WW I could still eat what I wanted just less. I'd prepared my self for that. I can do it, fired up my friends to do it too. Like a fat girl support group. I feel torn about it. The only thing I'm happy about it loosing weight, but then when I get to what I need to weigh, what then. What measures will I have to take? I take a vitamin, am now drinking 5 oz of Slimfast twice a day and a few nibbles here and there. My stomach pokes out like I'm pg b/c of the gas and constipation. I can fit into my 16 jeans though. For a girl who could wear a 22 last year it's a big deal! I can't take stimulant laxatives either. I don't know just why. So I eat Colease to pretty much no avail.


    I found a support group online and literally thanked God for helping me find the page. My symptoms are not so severe that I vomit. I just feel like I am,most of the time. I've tried some of the recommended meds in the past for various issues. I can already say I know they won't work. I did ask my nurse if I could try diet first. She said yes. I asked about Slim Fast she said just one a day and only 1/2 a bottle at a time. It's actually kinda fattening if you don't follow their plan. I've found so many conflicting plans online.{you know b/c everything you read online is true} One says eat all the fat you want,like milkshakes and ice cream. If I did that then I would GAIN weight like I did after hernia surgery #2. One says to do crackers and Gatorade for a few days then bump up your intake. Just reading how much 6 small meals a day of food is made me sick. I'm calling the Dr. tomorrow and seeing jut how slow my motility is and asking just what diet plan they can suggest and ask for phenegran


.http://www.webmd.com/digestive-disorders/digestive-disorders-gastroparesis